Waiting

If you know me pretty well, you probably already know that I'm in a "decision phase" these days. And if you know me even better, you know that not having clarity is difficult for me. I'm waiting on God to give me some clear answers to what He wants for my near future. In some ways I feel so very conflicted and then in the next moment my thoughts, ideas, dreams, and goals are well defined.What I do know is this: God has given me a gift-my husband and my daughters. My first responsibility is to these people. I honor God when I honor my commitment to my family. If God wants me to work for Him, to minister or serve in His Name, then I cannot and will not do that at the expense of the primary gift He has given me. So I wait, and I wait praying for clarity and for the boldness and strength it takes to be obedient to His call.